14 May 2026

Lizard's Final Quilt

Three weeks ago, I wasn't sure I could ever touch my sewing machine again. I'd been trying to teach Lizard to quilt again as art therapy.

He picked out the guacamole fabric, and he did the design. I cut the batting and the solids, but he put all the charm square layers together. Meticulously.

I laid the unfinished project out on the floor to try to finish it a couple of days after Lizard's Celebration of Life. All I could do was look at it and cry for about three days.

He was able to do only the X's. He couldn't do the seams. We got only halfway through the project before he had to go into the hospital. He had planned to let me try to sell the finished quilt for him.

I finally finished it last week after two full days of working on it. I found out I can use my sewing machine again. It was painful at first, but it got easier with each block. I think Lizard would have been proud of me for sticking with it until I finished.

I posted on social media that I was thinking of selling the rag quilt in my Etsy shop with all proceeds going to The HealthWell Foundation, which made it possible for Lizard to take an extremely expensive medication for nearly two years. The Foundation helps many people afford life-saving medications. I think Lizard would have wanted that.

Within four hours of posting, I received a text from a charitable fan who'd made a generous donation to the Foundation and who asked if they could have the quilt. I will be delivering it in person this weekend. I think Lizard would be dancing with joy.

Linking up with Alycia Quilts.

12 May 2026

Saditude vs. Gratitude

Two weeks ago I was mourning the loss, not realizing at the time the exact day was the 22nd anniversary of our first date. There really is something to anniversary triggers.

The next day, once I realized what caused such intense grief, I was grateful for 22 adventurous years. I wish it had been more. But I know more is to come. Gratitude makes such a huge difference. I am sleeping better. When I can sleep with thankfulness in my heart.

11 May 2026

No Flake Monday


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I had every intention of finishing and sharing another snowflake today. But time continues to get away from me. There have been many required steps to take and many decisions to make.

However, I was able two weeks ago to finish a digital snowflake collage I'd been working on for months. Mostly during sleepless nights. Of which there have been many. Far too many.

I also finished a new digital snowflake flag while awaiting return phone calls a couple of weeks ago. I had created a similar piece of art using dingbats (remember those?!?) many, many years ago. The new one features MY snowflakes.

I've since used the images to create T-shirts, fabric, posters, bags and even a mug. And I tried shooting snowflakes during our nine-inch pile up last week. (The flakes were graupel.) I haven't downloaded the images yet (I just barely downloaded snowflake images from early March!), but I don't expect to see anything inspirational.

The nine inches of snow brought down many branches from my maple, which required a bit of clean-up and further complicated my scrambled schedule.

My plan going forward is to continue publishing here Monday through Friday. I'm also trying to learn how to take care of me. I'm trying to discover who I am. All the while intensely missing my husband.

When cracks appear, rest assured everything is okay. Or as okay as can be expected. This is a new path for me, and I'm sure there will be plenty of diversions along the way. I'll keep trying to be the curious photographer longing to get back on her bike. The grief is acute because the love is fierce. I'm not ashamed of that.

07 May 2026

Coming Back to Life


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I'm rediscovering me.

In some ways, it's difficult to go back to "normal". I used to tell my kids normal is a setting on a washing machine, not something we should try to emulate in real life.

"Normal" doesn't seem to be attainable anymore in my life right now. I know I will heal in time, but the pain is always going to be there.

So I'm trying to find ways to create that help me heal. I hope what I create can help others who are in pain heal, too.

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