Wordless Wednesday

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Saditude vs. Gratitude

Two weeks ago I was mourning the loss, not realizing at the time the exact day was the 22nd anniversary of our first date. There really is something to anniversary triggers.

The next day, once I realized what caused such intense grief, I was grateful for 22 adventurous years. I wish it had been more. But I know more is to come. Gratitude makes such a huge difference. I am sleeping better. When I can sleep with thankfulness in my heart.

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No Flake Monday

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I had every intention of finishing and sharing another snowflake today. But time continues to get away from me. There have been many required steps to take and many decisions to make.

However, I was able two weeks ago to finish a digital snowflake collage I'd been working on for months. Mostly during sleepless nights. Of which there have been many. Far too many.

I also finished a new digital snowflake flag while awaiting return phone calls a couple of weeks ago. I had created a similar piece of art using dingbats (remember those?!?) many, many years ago. The new one features MY snowflakes.

I've since used the images to create T-shirts, fabric, posters, bags and even a mug. And I tried shooting snowflakes during our nine-inch pile up last week. (The flakes were graupel.) I haven't downloaded the images yet (I just barely downloaded snowflake images from early March!), but I don't expect to see anything inspirational.

The nine inches of snow brought down many branches from my maple, which required a bit of clean-up and further complicated my scrambled schedule.

My plan going forward is to continue publishing here Monday through Friday. I'm also trying to learn how to take care of me. I'm trying to discover who I am. All the while intensely missing my husband.

When cracks appear, rest assured everything is okay. Or as okay as can be expected. This is a new path for me, and I'm sure there will be plenty of diversions along the way. I'll keep trying to be the curious photographer longing to get back on her bike. The grief is acute because the love is fierce. I'm not ashamed of that.

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Friday Fortius

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Coming Back to Life

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I'm rediscovering me.

Never Stop Serving
by Snowcatcher

In some ways, it's difficult to go back to "normal". I used to tell my kids normal is a setting on a washing machine, not something we should try to emulate in real life.

"Normal" doesn't seem to be attainable anymore in my life right now. I know I will heal in time, but the pain is always going to be there.

So I'm trying to find ways to create that help me heal. I hope what I create can help others who are in pain heal, too.

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Wordless Wednesday

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Reaching Out

So many people have done so much to try to help me get through the past few weeks.

I thought I'd let some photos tell a tiny portion of the story.

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